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dear you

Journal Entry: Tue Mar 11, 2008, 1:27 AM
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: rilo kiley
I know that no amount of apologies can ever reverse the hurt and disappointment that I've been causing you all these while. I'm clearly sober and am not acting oblivious to any single one of your antics. At all. I know very clearly what you have been or are still trying to bring across every time you put that up, and you know very well that yes, I know it all along too. I just don't know what is it exactly that is wrong with me.

You think I don't feel anything at all? Of course I do, I feel really really bad for treating you that way and we all know that you clearly don't deserve it at all. And as cliche as it sounds, it did feel like a thousands knives, of which all sank to the very pit.

I'm just extremely puzzled right now, and it doesn't help that that abrupt pang of guilt just continues to resonate every single day. But wait, what am I even feeling guilty about ? This mess that I've created which could have been easily prevented in the first place by no one else but me alone ? I don't know. I just feel like I want to escape reality. And I'm sorry, for being such a coward who doesn't want to get out of this labyrinth that I'm getting stuck and lost in. Simply because.. I don't know how I should go about doing it.

I'm Sorry.

And thank you for tolerating all this shit. It must not have been easy putting up with my nonsense all these while.

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 15 (1992)
  • Current Residence: Pasir Ris
  • Favourite band or musician: Arctic Monkeys, Beatles, The Used
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock, Electro
  • Favourite style or digital art: Abstract
  • Tools of the Trade: Canon EOS 400D, Panasonic Lumix Fx9, Photoshop 7

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~patsyrey:iconpatsyrey: 3 days 20 hours ago Mood: Pride
love yoh work
you are number 1 in my books keep on rockin with yoh art ^^
~olysses:iconolysses: Apr 24, 2008, 8:45:39 AM
lovely gallery!
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~beanutputter:iconbeanutputter: Apr 4, 2008, 7:03:22 AM
haa thanks. if you see me say hi !
*catpuff-noir:iconcatpuff-noir: Apr 3, 2008, 8:41:22 AM
I want to thank you for taken my work in your fav,I really appreciate :blowkiss: and my compliments for your nice gallery :clap:

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~factive:iconfactive: Apr 3, 2008, 6:05:15 AM
thank you for the fav! :D appreciate it :)
~boifadz:iconboifadz: Mar 13, 2008, 1:03:02 PM
you really have alot of awesome pictures. hope to see cya one day. because i stay pasir ris too.. haha! =P
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~Soldi:iconSoldi: Mar 12, 2008, 5:12:31 PM
yup. turned 15 .. 1 month ago (1993) :D

haha

thanks fr th fav

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~FidoPhoto:iconFidoPhoto: Mar 12, 2008, 12:09:52 PM Mood: Zest
hey.thanks for the favs.

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~She-dressed:iconShe-dressed: Mar 12, 2008, 4:43:44 AM
omg! youre so totally good!

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~Killer-Barbie2156:iconKiller-Barbie2156: Mar 9, 2008, 2:41:44 PM
cute gallery :heart:

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~Soldi:iconSoldi: Mar 4, 2008, 1:37:13 AM
nice pics u have here :D

cheers

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~r4ngz:iconr4ngz: Feb 28, 2008, 9:03:25 PM
like your gallery
~r4ngz:iconr4ngz: Feb 28, 2008, 9:03:08 PM
like you gallery!!!
*smokedval:iconsmokedval: Feb 26, 2008, 12:21:21 PM
thank you so much dear! :heart:

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*xmarvel:iconxmarvel: Feb 26, 2008, 8:57:16 AM
Thankyouu!! :heart: :thanks:

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*MorkOrk:iconMorkOrk: Feb 26, 2008, 7:25:03 AM
hey, thanks a lot for the favs :boogie:
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~zehntes:iconzehntes: Feb 15, 2008, 11:41:01 AM
wow, great gallery. and you're only 15!
plus you have a cute username.
:rose:
:sun:

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